Protuberance Gone

After what seemed an eternity, the "protuberance" as I chose to call it, finally dropped off leaving hardly a trace. Whether its disappearance is a good thing or not, I don't know. Maybe it heralds a new phase in my deterioration or maybe I am simply healed of a mysterious affliction. Anyway it's a relief to have it gone.

My left bottom molar continues to be a source of minor annoyance, remaining sensitive to hot and cold. Presumably the nerve in the tooth will simply die and the tooth will eventually crumble. I'll keep monitoring the situation. I'm loath to visit the dental mafia unless things become really grim.

Now that I'm settled back in Maleo, I'm getting into a routine of walking every second day and doing my stretch band exercises for my legs at least once a day every day. Most days I also use the stretch band for my upper body as well. Overall I don't feel too bad but I'm aware of my increasing fragility. Increasingly I don't want to be bothered with matters that cause me stress. I'm happy just to dither about.

Mentally, I've decided to persist with my online chess. I figure I can only get better or languish at the same level as I'm at now. I find the 10 minute per side plus 5 second increment suits me well enough. I just need to manage my time because I often obtain winning positions but squander them in time trouble or because of chess blindness. It's important for maintaining a semblance of mental acuity.

Just as I finished writing this last paragraph, a family friend whom I've played chess with once before called up for a game. He's coming over soon. Last time we met, he won four games out of four convincingly so I'm apprehensive but it's all practice so ... and after two lengthy games I came away with a draw and a loss but it was.a hard fought loss and my opponet was clearly impressed with the level of my play. We are fairly evenly matched when we play at a slower pace which is what happened this time around. Last time we played I more or less matched his very rapid play but this time I played at my own pace and fared much better.

Tooth Trouble Again

The nagging cold, a cold that had overtaken me soon after being assailed by the chronic cough of my chess-playing nemisis, has segued into a problem with my leftmost, bottom molar. It has suddenly become sensitive to hot and cold. This is not a welcome development and presages the need for further dental appointments.

It's just another symptom of my body's decline, a decline that is gathering velocity. Teeth trouble and old age form an age-old partnership I suspect. I started writing this post on March 26th and now its April 4th. Nothing much has changed. My molar is still troubling me and the mouth ulcers that troubled some months ago are threatening to return.

After not walking any great distance for some time, I decided to walk around the block on my birthday. The distance seemed much greater than I remember and I certainly felt out of practice. I've been doing my stretch exercises more regularly and feel well enough at the moment except for the molar problem.

Infected

Pretty pissed off. I've come down with a cold of some sort. I'm sure I was infected by a guest who visited the house on Saturday and had a nasty cough. We were playing chess for an extended period and his coughing persisted over the entire course of our games. I've been affected since Wednesday and today is Thursday. 

I took two panadol last night and I've taken another two this evening. The effects are fairly mild but I am weak and tired. I just have a runny nose and general malaise. Hopefully it won't progress further but it makes you realise how vulnerable you are. Avoiding close contact with people outside of the family circle is the best strategy. Even family members who are clearly sick should be avoided.

A hermit doesn't get infected by other people but I'm not quite ready to abandon the world entirely. When I drive by myself and visit a mall, I'm generally not in close and sustained contact with anybody so I'm relatively safe. Getting an Uber of course is best avoided but sometimes necessary. Air travel is another matter entirely and provides a perfect opportunity for infection. This mode of travel should only be undertaken for a good reason. Sooner or later, a virulant pathogen is going to strike me down and the consequences may be deadly. All that can I do is to minimise the chances of encountering such an organism. Being a hermit certainly has appeal as I'm quite done with the world of people and yet I'm not quite ready for the next.

An Odd Protuberance

The "pimple" that appeared on my chest, weeks ago, is still there and causing minor discomfort. I purchased an Ichthammol Ointment that is a drawing salve designed to bring boils and splinters to a head. It is commonly found in pharmacies. So what is Ichthammol?

Ichthammol, also known as ammonium bituminosulfonate or Ichthyol, is a dark, viscous liquid derived from sulfur-rich oil shale, used topically as a drawing salve and for treating various skin conditions due to its anti-inflammatory, antibacterial, and antifungal properties. 

After several days of use, it doesn't appear to be doing very much. A pimple or a boil should eventually come to a head and burst but this "protuberance" is stubbornly resistant. At the same time, my inner pressure caused by my thymoma has become more noticeable and I can only wonder if there isn't some connection. Apart from this little inconvenience, I'm feeling OK and have been doing my band stretches on a regular basis. My weight hovers between 70kg and 71kg.

My condition is best described as chest acne and the photo below is a reasonable approximation of what I seem to be suffering from.

However, the treatment prescribed on this website does not include the use of Ichthammol. Instead, the recommendations are:

• Benzoyl peroxide: This is a topical treatment that is available in creams, gels, and lotions. Benzoyl peroxide works by killing acne-causing bacteria, reducing inflammation, and unclogging pores.
  
  
• Salicylic acid: Salicylic acid is a common ingredient in many OTC acne treatments. It works by exfoliating the skin and unclogging pores.
  
  
• Alpha-hydroxy acids: Alpha-hydroxy acids (AHAs) such as glycolic acid and lactic acid are used in many OTC acne treatments. They work by exfoliating the skin and removing dead skin cells, which can help to prevent clogged pores.
  
  
• Sulphur: Sulphur is an ingredient found in some OTC acne treatments. It works by reducing oil production and killing bacteria.
  
  
• Tea tree oil: Tea tree oil is a natural ingredient that has antibacterial properties. It can be found in some OTC acne treatments and can be effective in reducing inflammation and killing bacteria.

I think it best to try some of these given that the Ichthammol does not seem to be working. The same site offers some natural remedies as well including:

There are a few natural remedies that may help reduce chest acne, including the previously mentioned tea tree oil:

• Tea tree oil: Tea tree oil has natural antibacterial properties and can be applied topically to the skin to reduce inflammation and kill acne-causing bacteria.
  
  
• Aloe vera: Aloe vera gel can help to soothe inflamed skin and reduce redness and irritation.
  
  
• Apple cider vinegar: Apple cider vinegar can be used as a natural toner to help balance the skin's pH levels and reduce the growth of bacteria. It should be diluted with water before applying it to the skin.
  
  
• Honey: Honey has natural antibacterial properties and can be applied topically to the skin to reduce inflammation and prevent infection.
  
  
• Green tea: Drinking green tea or applying it topically to the skin may help to reduce inflammation and kill acne-causing bacteria.

UPDATE: 

Nothing much seems to work so I've covered with a bandaid again, this time smearing it with Arnica. Desy knew someone who had a similar protuberance removed and the person died after subsequent bleeding couldn't be stemmed. Her advice is to leave well enough alone and just grin and bear it. Maybe it's a conduit for some sort of temporary release and it will fade away over time. My instinct also is to leave it be.

Biopsy Blues

Here's an interesting statement (link) by a Dr Thomas Lodi, MD: 

A Biopsy Is Almost A Guarantee Of Cancer Metastasis & Acceleration

The Problem With The Biopsy Is This. When A Cancer Tumor Is Growing, The Body Contains it Within A Fibrin Sheath. 

The Minute That Sheath Is Broken, By The Puncture Needle Of A Biopsy, The Cancer Metastasizes & Spreads.

I'd heard about this before but it was good to be reminded of it. This is just another example of how the medical mafia sabotages our health. I'm sure some medical personnel believe they're doing the right thing and helping the patient but whether the harm caused by the biopsy is intentional or not, it is "iatrogenic" meaning "relating to illness caused by medical examination or treatment". This would never be admitted of course.

Once the cancer spreads, the slash (operate), burn (radiotherapy) and poison (chemotherapy) intervention is initiated and the money flows, either directly from the individual or indirectly from the taxpayers' dollars. Of course, one doctor saying that biopsies are "almost a guarantee of cancer metastasis and acceleration" does not make it true but it should give anyone who is considering the procedure pause for thought.

A Resumption

Today, on the last night of January 2025, I actually used my stretch band for the first time since arriving back from Australia in mid-January. For some reason, I just haven't felt motivated to do any exercise at all for the past couple of weeks. I've been largely sedentary and have only ventured out into the garden briefly on a couple of occasions. That's about to change hopefully. 

It's important to work in the garden as that provides a lot of exercise without noticing it. I need to resume some walking as well, especially given that the constant cloud cover makes it easier. Healthwise I feel well enough so there's no impediments to being more active. I really do need to spend less time on my laptop and phone. My weight is around 70.5 kg which is fine but I don't won't it slipping below 70 kg.

I'm still taking my Moringa and the stiffness in my fingers remains relatively mild. My right shoulder joint still pains me from time to time but it's easy to endure and usually transient. Overall I shouldn't complain about my physical condition given that I'm staring down the barrel of 76. There are many far worse off than me.

Death's Door
by William Blake

Uranus has stationed as of last night and will soon begin moving forward through Taurus toward my natal Moon. What the consequences of that conjunction in late June will be remain to be seen. Perhaps it will mark my demise, as my dream voice announced, or else I will go on. If I am to go on then I need to discover some sense of purpose because right now I feel that I've lost all momentum. I'm standing still.

It's coming up to ten years since my retirement and I've very much enjoyed the freedom to do whatever I want with my time but lately things feel different. My sense of joie de vivre has dissipated. Maybe this is what happens towards the end. Maybe it's just a passing phase. I should reread some of my old posts on this blog to gain some inspiration.

Sudden Vision Impairment

Today, 24th January 2025, I sat down at my laptop to read the Twitter feed and I couldn't focus on the text. I thought my glasses were dirty and so I cleaned them but the probably persisted. After a few minutes, normal vision returned. This was unsettling as a sudden decline in one's near vision can't be a good thing. 

Transient episodes of blurred or "grayed out" vision can be a sign of a tumour in the brain that is pressing on the optic nerve. Hopefully that's not the case. All I can do is to monitor the situation and make a note of any further vision abnormalities. I'll use this post and the site to record such observations.

Source

There's certainly some family history of such tumours. My maternal grandmother suffered from a tumour on her pituatary gland. It was removed when she was aged 66 but she wasn't the same woman after the operation. My aunty and my grandmother's youngest child suffered terrible headaches that were initially diagnosed as a mental disorder but later it was revealed that she had a malignant tumour that was affecting her brain. She died at age 37. My brother Tony suffered from an acoustic neuroma that was removed when he was 19 years old.