Passing On

Last night I dreamed that I only had a few months to live. In the dream, I was looking on at myself and I took the news (delivered as a sort of announcement) rather well, I wasn't perturbed in the slightest. I just accepted it. In another dream, I was observing a swarm of meerkat-like creatures gnawing feverishly, frantically, frenetically at rock that appeared to be sandstone. They were trying to gouge out a pathway but they had taken a wrong turn. I knew where they should be headed but they themselves didn't. I tried to tell someone about the situation but to little effect.

This dream suggested some natural somatic process gone wrong but what do meerkat-like creatures gnawing feverishly at rock indicate? There's information to be had about the spirit animal significance of meerkats on this site. Here's a small quote:

One key message from Meerkat Spirit Animal is that of vigilant awareness. You need to stand up and see true. Things look much different when you elevate your perspective. Use your new point of observation for measuring and metering your actions. Meerkat also reminds you to remain ever watchful. Standing guard is an honor in the Animal Kingdom and among humans.

Of course in the dream they were burrowing and not standing guard. The dream was disturbing in that the creatures were so totally and frantically involved in their activity. It came at a time when I'd begun to do more regular strengthening exercises in an effort to tone my body and perhaps build a little more muscle.

Prior to the dream I'd been feeling quite spritely but following it I've been lethargic. The day before the dream I woke up feeling quite depressed which is unusual for me. I wondered what had triggered it but couldn't come up with an explanation, although physical impairment like cancer, thyroid disease, vitamin deficiencies, and infections can trigger depression.

I'll monitor my dreams more closer to see if there are any more clues to be had. I am feeling quite flat at the moment with little interest in the outside world. I noticed that the transiting north node of the Moon was conjunct my natal Mercury but this wouldn't seem to account for my low mood. Apart from that, transiting Uranus is slowly grinding to a halt and will station in early February at a sensitive spot in my chart.

POSTSCRIPT

Last night (30th December 2025) I had the most awful dream that I can't even bear to write down but I'm hardly likely to forget it. It certainly had to do with death and dying.

Precognitive Dream

One could well ask what a precognitive dream has to do with "staying healthy" but there is a connection as will be seen once I've told my tale. Let's begin with the dream. I'm looking at a street corner where a large dog in lying on its side and there are people around. I wonder what's happened. That was it. 

The next day I walked to Coles, a distance of a couple of kilometres, where I bought some groceries and headed back home. On the way back, my right leg pretty much gave up on me and I had to hobble home looking like an old guy who'd had a stroke. Close to home and opposite the local vet clinic, I sat down on a seat and gathered my resources for the one hundred metres or so that I had left to walk. I was in a bad way.

As I sat there, I looked to my right and there on the nearby corner, opposite the vet clinic, a golden retriever was lying on its side with a woman standing beside the dog. She was holding a pram and just standing there. Presently, a guy came out of the vet shop, picked it up and carried it back to the shop.

Now that's a sight you don't see everyday and what struck me like a thunderbolt was that it was virtually a rerun of my dream of the night before. In the dream I was about the same distance off just watching the scene. The next day, I was sitting on a bench and feeling like what the poor dog might have been feeling. I just wasn't able to go on and thought about phoning and asking to be picked up.

Lately, it seems that every time I say I'm getting better, I suddenly get worse. I'm currently hobbling about and finding locomotion quite difficult. I'm alright if I'm lying on the bed, sitting down or not moving around. My right leg is not weight supporting and my lumbar region is still causing significant discomfit.

What's remarkable however, is the dream and my precognition. Should I draw any deep meaning from the experience? I don't know. Let's see how my recovery goes over the next few days. One thing is for sure: my body is clearly in need of regular maintenance and repair.